I need to scream
I am screaming inside.
My head is exploding
He is up and down the house at my face
I find solace in my son’s room but I can’t lie down, I feel jittery
I feel I am at breaking point but I can’t break down.
I feel I am the pin that’s holding the fabric together.
When I think of work tomorrow I feel jittery and a brain freeze.
I have to chant to myself I can’t feel that, I can’t break down.
I can’t feel anything but to work to keep the family afloat
I have to do that for my son’s sake
I need to talk to someone, anyone.